not a happy pig like this one!!
im stuck.im my own man made mud,it made from mess and shit and horrid stuff ive prdouced myself.how do i get out of it.how do i leave stuff behind that grips every part of my being.cany anyone ever really let go.people who have affairs.do they ever leave the lover behind.alchoholics,can anyone ever be cured completely and not go through hellish days.
over eaters can they ever resist completewly.
drug addicts.
or is it always a fight to stay on the rihgt path,and if so cani cope with that fight and do i want to if its going to be so hard and a constant battle.if its always going to be wanting to drag me back.tempt me to a life like this again.why move away.why try and fight.
im missing the kids today.i cant see them due to be ill in bed.i do miss them.but again when i dont see them its easier to run away from responisbilites and keep hiding.
facts of the moment:
currently:watching this morning
have:read my maeve binchey book and almost at the end.
spoke to:my dad,mum and the emergency dentist as ive an absess in my tooth.
done:dishwahser like a good daughter,replied to a few email,researched pressies for my usueless father to give to my mum.
watched:one tree hilland ugly betty and gossip girl repeats.
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